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Aftermath
A lot of people seem to know about what has happened. I think its weird, for me. I find it hard to be solemn around people, because I’m usually solemn when I’m on my own. I think I could slap myself sometimes. Over there trying to be as cheerful about things as possible, and I end up making stupid remarks and comments. Argh, I think I will never learn to think before I talk. But oh well, what’s done is done, what’s said is said. Better watch my tongue next time.
And yet, I was thinking to myself, even though it’s a sensitive topic to mention suicide now, won’t it be quite painful to constantly be touchy about it and keep reminding ourselves of what has happened. I guess the wound is still raw and maybe it will take some time to heal. Of course, petty people out there who hold it against me just because of a slip of the tongue should just go away and leave me alone. It’s no big mystery who the anonymous is. At least not to me, but whatever, I don’t really care? There was no ill intention in whatever I say, and sometimes people can be over obsessed with things and get carried away. Than again, no ones perfect, so I’d better let this go before it blows up.
Threading on thin ice or egg shells is never a good thing, especially when it comes to someone who wields so must passion for hating people and condemning them without even reflecting about themselves in the first place. Haha, that sounds like me too. Argh, I’m hypocritical in this sense lah. I guess I have learnt to be less sensitive and to be honest; I don’t really give a hoot to what that person thinks. Seriously, I’m a bitch, so deal with it. If you can’t, than that’s too bad. I’m not going to bother myself by trying to please you or something. I think I can survive in this world with one less pain in the neck. You don’t like people, well newsflash, not everyone loves you either.
To those out there who are still grieving about this, don’t think too much about it. It doesn’t help to keep reminding others of what happened too. I don’t really know what to say, except to be strong? Ok, easier said than done. But yah, like I said, I’m not good with advices. Take it easy I suppose.
farcical-rants - 5:35 pm - Monday, March 06, 2006
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