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Attempting to be mature about things
The fortress rises once again, the draw bridge drawn back, the moat widens. Maturity versus immaturity, phasing in and out of both. Momentary moment or long term issue, who knows?
My thumb is swollen once more, but by now, I ought to have gotten used to thumb swelling from the past few months of training. I become conscious of the fact that I pretty much have to struggle to find ways of improving myself and critically analyze what is it that is wrong with what I’m doing because there isn’t much help around to point out the mistakes. But I guess I can be glad when I notice my mistakes by myself, feeling some false sense of independence or something. It’s probably what comes when there is lack of a coach. I don’t really consider Mr. Chew as a coach, but more of a teacher in charge even though he takes on both roles.
After today, I can heave a temporary sigh of relief because all the ugly homework that hung over my head has been dealt with, whether morally or immorally dealt with isn’t the issue here. Haha. Of course, there is the cursed week ahead that seems to rear its ugly head every end of a term. It’s the week where all the test and assignments that are due falls in. It is also the week where all the assignments, essays, projects and tasks are issued to torture us over the supposed one week break. I never really felt that the holidays were a break, but more of a self study period in which we have to deal with all the homework under the illusion that we are actually taking time off from school and enjoying a breather.
I decided that I really detest, hate, abhor, loathe, despise, abominate and dislike chemistry. It is the science, no subject, that I freaking hate the most. I hate it so much that I dislike it even more than mathematics and higher mother tongue put together. I hate chemistry with a vengeance. The worse thing is that if I ever want to take a science combination when I get to J1 next year, chemistry is like the compulsory subject. There is no physics and biology combination. It’s either biology cum chemistry or physics cum chemistry. That totally sucks. I can’t even express enough on how much that sucks.
There was full day off yesterday, however we had training so we actually left school near 12 in the afternoon. Third period is so annoying. Give me a blade after third period p.e and I would just go around stabbing everyone that I see whom I cannot stand.
Had lunch at orchard which I have not visited for a really long time. The place was crawling with VJC people; I think I saw like at least 50 VJC students there. It was quite fun just to walk around heeren and cineleisure, looking at stuff and basically just window shopping. Of course, our legs got tired and we went to Mac Donalds at takashimaya to sit down, rest and gossip. Usually, gossip would be the thing that we don’t really do; it would be more engaging in discussions. However, today, we were literally gossiping or maybe even bitching. Haha.
With all the remedials over and done with, I enjoy quite a lot of free time on this particular Friday, especially since CT period was pushed to earlier in the morning. We had to go to school today despite the fact that there were only IPs who were having lessons. Our lunch took quite long to come and they had to be ordered because Ms Low thought that only the Wanton Mee stall was open. However, if I knew that the Noodles and Carrot Cake stall was open, I wouldn’t have ordered food to be delivered to school. In the end, the Char Siew Rice wasn’t that bad. So I guess I’m being an empty vessel here, complaining about something that wasn’t such a big deal in the end.
Pray that I will survive through next week okay? I hope I can manage to just scrape through the week without suffering from any nervous breakdown or sleep deficiency etc.
farcical-rants - 9:32 pm - Friday, March 03, 2006
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