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Death
Heave a sigh of relief everyone! The language arts test is, at long last, over. Oh my god, I didn’t even finish the damn bloody paper and had to hurry to add in a few more points for my application question. What the hell is anti-classicist? Bah, I don’t recall coming across the word before. Oh well, what’s done is done I suppose. Haha, now I can put that behind me and move on. No use crying over spilt milk like they always say.
There was this self discovery session that Mr. Chew conducted for the volleyball guys yesterday. In some way I wonder to myself, if it were to be conducted with a different group of people, would the results be the same, better or worse? Personally speaking, I wouldn’t really mind if it were the same or worse. Of course it would always be good to have it better. I live for myself and the ones I love, not for the country, the continent or the world. I think I have lived life in the way that I most enjoy myself in. Even though I don’t or won’t impact many people, I would die a contented, satisfied person because my goal in life isn’t to be self sacrificial all the time but to live life the way I want to. I can just drop dead now and actually be able to go with no regrets. At the same time, the whole thing about dropping dead and not being to tell your loved ones your last words before you leave makes a lot of sense, it would be the one thing that I would regret if I didn’t do before I drop dead and kick the bucket.
In no order of merit.
Decade long 姐妹Cindy and Aaron.
Where do I begin? First and foremost, I must say that it would be reasonably hard for people to even keep in contact for such an extensive period of time. Even though Cindy has, to some extent, drifted away, being in DHP and all, I still believe that the bond between the three of us is strong. I mean, we can actually meet up and start bitching and crapping about anything under the sun, as if we just met each other just the other day. The ease and comfort in striking a conversation is executed so naturally that it doesn’t amaze me why we have been friends all this years. My message to you guys is that if I were to die and to go to heaven, I will make sure I bless all of you with good fortune in your career, love life, family, friends, financial status, education and whatever else things I may have left out. Of course I don’t believe I will go to heaven, if there even is one. So if I do go to hell, make sure to give me offerings when 七月 comes. And when you die and do go to hell with me, let’s haunt the world together! Haha.
My other 姐妹.
Haha, you guys have made quite a big impact in my life as well. Suddenly I am at a lost for words. I guess I would have to thank you guys for all the times we shared together and the support and company you all lend whenever I need it. We also shared quite a lot of experiences together, be it the 6.7 and 5.7 performances in primary school or all the times we spent playing that childish and retarded game of 2-4 during our recess periods in the canteen. All the fun times we had going out together, taking the silly neo prints, shopping, being mean bitches and basically just being ourselves.
Edsh!ne.
Dear me, I can’t even begin to say how much I miss this CCA. You guys are the bunch of craziest, most creative, most spontaneous and most talented people I have come across in a CCA. Honestly, if I can go back for EDS even though I have been in VJ for a year now, I would. I will miss all the times we had playing captains ball, volleyball and basketball after CCA, skipping CCA to go to bugis or orchard together. I will also miss the times where we would go to Kampong Arang after CCA to eat and fatten ourselves with the fast-food restaurants there, pissing off the other customers and the outlet manager at the same time. Furthermore, I will miss the bitching sessions we will have of the weird instructors that Mr. Ken will hire for us. In addition, I will also miss all the lame EDS sessions we have with Mr. Ken, doing weird drama practices like performing little skits and laughing at the ridiculousness of one another, all the plays we put up and all the anxiety we had before EDS night and the weird GEP opening that we had to perform for the other time. Besides the drama bit of it, I will miss the dance practices and performances that we had even more! I can’t even begin to lament about how much I miss dance. Here in VJ, dance for guys is like so limited that I can’t even be bothered to join. I will miss all the training sessions we had and how we would slack off to the canteen to get food and drinks, than sneaking the food back to the wall-less classroom or the D and D room to eat, how we would use our spectacles to plug in the god damn CD player and how we would get excited about our costumes and when we are auditioning to perform on teachers day. Last but not least, I will miss the people.
DHS.VJC cuckoos.
You 7 bitches know who you are, I rather not state just in case my delusional state of being an elephant shows and I leave out some people. I think that without some of you guys to be there for me in the beginning, I would have gone nuts with the whole cliques issue and there being the super irritating bunch of hot headed retards that I rather not state just in case I set off some sort of Tristan opposition party. Even though you are the bunch of people that I have ever known to have so much conflict between a group of friend and there being so much weird stuff that I have never even thought of talking about, I must say you guys made one of the biggest impact to my life. I think I matured rather quickly when I got to actually know you guys. In fact, it made me learn more about myself and I guess that under some sort of influence, I am what I am today because of a bit of what you guys directly or indirectly do, be it negative or positive. It may actually be weird for me to be writing this because I think you guys will probably die before I do. Haha.
DHS.2I.Friends.
This is going out to those that I can actually get along with in 2I without me having the urge to whip out a fork and viciously stab them all to death before I take their mangled corpses and hang them on the halls of DHS as trophies of my accomplishment in ridding the world of pure evil. You guys were the ones who spent the days of adolescence with me, running around the school, forming an annoying clique that could bitch slap the world, allowing me to have a group of friends to fall back on when I was in school. You guys were the one who toiled over doing projects that we never wanted in the beginning and you guys were the ones who shared all the hardships and sufferings that we had to go through in those two years in DHS.
Ohfiveveeonetu.
My wonderful civic class, honestly this is probably the most united class I have been in. I can’t say much about my primary school class because we were all young and immature than, but my secondary school class was filled with mid-life crisis every other day and melodrama sessions that would be held on a weekly basis. I think I’ve grown quite a lot with this class too. I finally realized that if I can’t be accepted for who I am, than screw them. It is the class in which we go through the hell of IP together, in which we suffer under the teachers together, in which we bitch about the teachers we cannot stand together, in which we bitch about how we are sometimes ostracized by the school together. This is the class in which we can be unified when needed to, put aside our difference to a certain extent and actually be mature enough to handle most situations.
House committee 2005.2006.
Another wacky bunch of people that made life in VJC more colourful. Even though the IPs aren’t incorporated into some of the activities of the JC students, most of you guys still make an effort to get us involved in house issues most of the times. And even though I have been quite slack for the past year, I have decided to be more enthusiastic about house committee this year. The fun sleepovers we had in school, preparation for live ads and organizing and carrying out of major stuff like sports day or open house or even orientation.
Volleyball team
As much as I assume/know that most of you either hate/look down on/can’t be bothered by me due to my lack of skills or inability to fit in with some of the guys, I guess I would have to say that training with you all has been an experience. I guess we went through quite a lot together too, even though I hardly felt like part of it sometimes, I still experienced the few same things whether deliberately or not deliberately. Hopefully you guys can achieve the goal you all set out to attain.
Other friends that I have made and that do not belong to any of the above mentioned groups.
Thanks for being there and accepting me the way I am, be it a mean fucking bitch or a supposed attention whore or a fat piece of lump that is hideous but at the same time to big to miss.
Haha, I guess I shall end this entry here because all the rest of the things that I planned to blog about today seemed to have fallen out of my head when I was doing my list of things to say before I drop dead.
farcical-rants - 7:07 pm - Friday, March 31, 2006
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