Another Temporary Breather

I feel free again. Haha. Another jam-packed week is over. Actually it’s sad to think that we live life by the week, enjoying the short term relief and happiness every now and than, before returning back to rushing through another week just to await the sweet escape of the weekends. But I don’t really care right now because I’m too tired to think. Haha, I shall just blog and let whatever resides in my grey matter to just spew out.

More setbacks of being obese are showing. My knee is starting to throb rather badly after most training sessions. I’ve new found respect for people who have the willpower to push through hardship and rise to the occasion. I guess what Nicole said is true, to an extent. That is sometimes I get jealous of people with things I lack/want, and we end up just making whatever they do sound bad or negative. Like mugging if you will, or being overly passionate/borderline obsessive with something. Sometimes I push myself during training, sometimes I feel like giving up. It’s really mentally draining to have to make the extra mental effort just to push yourself to keep up with the rest. Just to keep up mind you.

Anyway, I will most probably see a sinseh tomorrow to get my knee “fixed” (if you will) and I’ll probably end up missing a week’s worth of training. Slightly wary of skipping training at first, but I don’t think I should really let that stop me from trying to get my knee “fixed”. I need more backbone, if only there was like some pill to take that empowers you with the ability to ignore what others think of you. Haha, I’m so idealistic sometimes I could just slap myself.

Thursday and Friday were horrible.

I was starved for nine straight periods because my first break was taken up by T42 with Mr. Teo. I don’t really like it when teachers preach, but somehow Mr. Teo managed to do it in a not so annoying way which I didn’t mind. Training ended especially late at night and it was the first training with the new coach around. To be frank, I’m intimidated. Partly because I believe the line between the good and bad will be drawn even more clearly, and partly because I feel an added pressure to do even better. My performance during training was incorrigible. And to think I was trying to make a good first impression, to make known that I’m not that lousy for a beginner. Haha, here’s the excuse rearing its ugly head again. In any case, the attempt to impress failed. Every spike and receive was so shitty I could flush it down the toilet. It was really demoralising. Oh well, I’ll find some way to pick myself up.

Don’t really know why, but this is starting to become a terrible obsession. Bah, I shan’t think of a way to deal with it just yet.

Reached home really late and really tired. I lied down to rest at ten and got up at around 3.30pm to 4.00pm in the morning to study SS test, which was on economics. I was surprised I didn’t pass out when I got to school and managed to survive my way through the first 5 periods. Didn’t really pay much attention during L.A because my attention was more focused on the bloody test.

I skipped electives on Friday to prepare for the national day video. Hopefully it won’t be that embarrassing when it airs in the hall on Tuesday. Be kind with your poison tongues people. Haha. One sport, captain’s ball, after school was even more stressful than the SS test. I would have rather another test than to umpire 4 matches, in which 3 involved Phoenix. Must have really pissed a lot of people off with my umpiring, but I forgot all about it after the matches were all over. Hopefully people won’t be that petty to hold grudges. Haha, the irony of me saying this. (Ignore the bad grammar.)

Today started off with a four hour long Chinese paper in the morning. Prelims for our Higher Chinese O Level if you will, I’m relatively confident of passing. Hopefully I will do well for my composition, which I felt was one of my better ones. Of course, I suppose I shouldn’t expect much seeing as how my Chinese standard is so low. Lol. Dined at parkway before returning home to catch some sleep. The test started at 8.00am just to add some context and I slept at 12.00 the night before.

The day passed by really quickly and when I woke up, it was already 5.00 plus. Showered and got changed before meeting Audrey, Yvonne and YY at tampinese to take a train down to Bugis for dinner. Wasn’t informed about the class dinner, but I guess they assumed I knew or something. Oo. Ended up eating at Pasta Mania and I swear, I’m never again eating the vegetarian pastas or any stirred fried pastas for that matter. The layer of oil at the bottom was just scary and I should really adjust my eating habits because it only occurred to me how unhealthily I’ve been eating recently.

The play was good in my opinion. Actually all the plays that I went to were generally enjoyable. Haha, perhaps it’s because I don’t have the level of anticipation that others may have before a play, so I go in with no expectations whatsoever and end up being able to enjoy the play. It ended fairly late and I was glad that I had good sense to nap before going out.


Argh, it's rather small here. But i like this class photo. (:

I’ve grown to really hate going home alone. I prefer going home with a companion because it makes the trip pass by faster. Which was why I was really thankful that Aaron was around to go home with me after the play.

On a side note, I’m not going to remove the previous post even though it may have raised certain questions and issues. I’m finding it quite hard to type out what’s in my head so I think I better play it safe and not say anything at all. Bottom line, it’s not about anyone you (for those who visit) will know. Yup and it's really up to you all to taky my word or not because I don't think I going to spend time to convince you all about something I've already said.

Ps. I can't wait for National Day Week and I'm still waiting for Jason to come online to send me pictures that were taken on One Sport Day !!!

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